I feel like this was a weekend of sitting...sitting in the car, sitting in bleachers, sitting on my couch.
Lots and lots of sitting.
The thing is? I asked for a weekend of sitting...a weekend of quiet. Be careful what you wish for.
The good news...summer vacation has begun. No alarms for me this week. Not a one.
Brian's basketball team played a tournament this weekend...thankfully close to home, but five games over the course of three days means lots of back and forth, back and forth...and meals at odd times.
We're used to that...but it's once again a new for us team which meant we don't know many people and are starting over. Again. And in all honesty, I just don't know if I want to take the time to start over.
Saturday night we drove inland about an hour for a drum and bugle corps show.
Matthew is an instructor this summer and suddenly looks soooo grown up. And happy. He'll be on the road all summer, so it was nice to squeeze in a visit with him. His being happy makes me happy.
And then I had my crazy moments this weekend. Those moments where I kept letting those dark thoughts in...those thoughts that are much better served not being thought about. Thoughts of second guessing, of questioning, of wondering.
I'm learning to come to peace with the fact that their paths might not be my path...but then I realize that my path for them is not necessarily Gods path for them. That they need to forge those roads themselves. And the fact is...they are each doing a really good job of figuring it out. Each of them.
It's just hard to let go...especially after a couple of decades in to this parenting gig.
I'm thinking that this week, my first full week of summer vacation, I need to do less sitting. More moving. Less thinking. More praying. Less worrying. More smiling.
This week, I am going to bless my home. First up? Brian's room. His closet needs an overhaul and so over the course of this week, it is going to get shoveled out. I'm also thinking that once it is done, a trip to Dairy Queen is in order.
Clean closets and ice cream.
We finally finished Downton Abbey tonight. Sigh. I'm still processing. What a great, great show...so glad we've watched it, but wow. Just...wow.
If you're a watcher then you get what I mean.